I love him so completely.
I don't mean to be a sob story but holy cow I had no idea this would be that hard. When he's with me it seems like I can find everything in the world to be annoyed about but then when he's away it feels like part of me is missing. And it's a big part of me. I don't know how women can do this. Why this was my lot in life I have no idea. And why I have to go through this I don't know! Why when I think I would make a great wife, and a great mother do I have to wait longer? I just don't know. What am I supposed to accomplish in these two years? Why do I have to do it alone? And I feel so incredibly alone.
I know it'll be possible. I know I can do it. I just. don't. want to. I just want Kyle by my side.
2 comments:
I'm sorry Rachel.. It's his time to serve the Lord right now, and that's just how life goes. I love you! Billy moved Monday and my week nights are already feeling quite empty without him here. Let's get together more (: Pizza and Grey's Anatomy nights like old times? haha
Rachel,
I waited for a missionary and honestly it is sometimes a pain that is difficult to describe. It physically feels like something has been ripped from you, but......I can PROMISE you that he will come home a better man who will be a better husband, father and leader. It does not take the pain away but know it really is an investment in his and maybe even your future. Keep as busy as you can and know that he is serving the Lord...its hard to really be sad about that.
Piece of unsolicited advice? Don't count the days. Just fill your days to the brim and I promise the time will pass.
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